In reference to my last post, I finally got my answer yesterday morning.
It led to a full day of crying. Five times in total, in fact.
Although not all of it was simply because of “the answer.” (I like how because of my vagueness, the issue has turned into something really serious-sounding; when in reality, two months from now, I’ll probably have difficulty remembering this moment)
To be fair, one of those crying sessions can be blamed on the onions I decided to cut. I figured, “Let’s make the most out of this weeping day and just be done with these onions once and for all”… until I run out, of course. Even though I don’t cook Indian food everyday, the Indian blood flows through me still. The onions will need to be replenished eventually.
I thought I was cried-out last night. But when I woke up cranky this morning, my husband just wasn’t having it. We ended up talking, which led to me letting out some pent-up emotions that needed to come out.
And with that, I finally think that I am over the issue. I feel like Nina Simone right now. It’s a new dawn, it’s a new day (Okay, let’s be honest. It was through Micheal Bublé that I first learned of this song. Oh and Mr. Rafia may be a huge fan of Bublé, but he has nothing to do with this discovery, okay?).
It’s pretty amazing how a new day really can turn a new corner. I had an inkling when I turned in last night that I would (God-willing) wake up the next morning feeling much better. Sure, I had to go through another crying session, but I really do feel better right now. The sun helps!
That’s not to say that I won’t ever have these types of moments again, because who are we kidding? This is me we’re talking about. But I know that I have the support (and perhaps, the strength?) I need to get back up much quicker than before. And I am very grateful for that.
Happy Wednesday, everybody! :)
* P.S. This scene with Samwise Gamgee and Frodo Baggins is but one of the reasons why The Two Towers was/is my favorite of the series. Other reasons? The Last March of the Ents and all that Saruman! Oh my, Sharkey. I shall forever miss you, my love! Okay, I’m crying again… bye.