Finding your personal truth amidst the fray

What do you do when so many things you once believed are questioned and put in doubt? Do you continue to hold on because people from your past insist that is the way to do things? Or do you embrace this new space given to you and just run with it, while keeping in the back of your mind that you may be in the wrong?

I’m merging two separate issues right now and so the above stream-of-conscious self-questioning probably won’t make sense to anyone but myself, but I’ve come across a few notions in the past few days that have gotten my head spinning in many different directions.

But whatever people may say – and I won’t be able to please them all, I have to accept MY reality. I can’t look to others to tell me what to do, even though I’ve gotten almost comfortable with living my life that way. I didn’t even realize that I was doing this until I got married actually. The change in environment was a rude awakening for me, but perhaps one that I needed. For the first time in my life, questioning was not only allowed, it was encouraged. In fact, I had to do it.

I’m not really sure where I am going with this post, but I just had to let it out. I decided against making a Facebook update (since I am now Twitter-less) because the site is too public and not really the appropriate medium for my ramblings. I like the obscurity of the blogosphere. It suits me. Especially for posts that are incoherent and impromptu like this one.

If you’re reading this and feel comfortable commenting, I have a question for you: How do you find your personal truth amidst the different competing positions when “right” and “wrong” are no longer as clear as you once thought?

4 thoughts on “Finding your personal truth amidst the fray”

  1. It’s an age old question, isn’t it. How do we know the truth?

    I like a little mystery in life. We have no prophet here these days, so making decisions for ourselves is damn near impossible. Every scholar says something different; my heart sometimes says something different from my head. I guess, for me, I don’t know what is right 99% of the time anymore. But with all the changes this world goes through, the only consistent thing remaining is Allah and what we know about Islam. Based on one’s beliefs, we can only hope to do the best with what we have. With the knowledge that our actions are defined by our intentions.
    It probably sounds all flowery when I say it like that, but what other choice do we have? My opinions on matters change daily, and I’m starting to think that’s okay. As long as nothing contradicts with my faith, it’s okay.

    Point blank, I don’t always find my personal truth. But I somehow feel that if I genuinely search for it, I’ll arrive there there whether I realize it or not.

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    1. Thanks so much for sharing your insight. You’re right. We have to be constantly vigilant about upholding the basic principles and tenants of our faith and live with the hope that God will help us along that path. That’s what faith comes down to right? Do your best to follow God’s commandments, but knowing in your heart and in your mind that beyond the basics, you don’t really know the answers.

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  2. I think that struggling in uncovering those personal truths is part of the human experience. Islam provide us with a strong source of reference to fall back on, and help us guide through the process of decision making. But even with that I’m afraid we are bound to make mistakes since we are all too human after all. I’ve come to the conclusion that the important thing is to learn from these moments and try to make better decisions armed with what you’ve learned along the way.

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    1. I agree. Islam is my anchor. But in the areas where it’s upto us to decide, because God did make us rational beings, it is inevitable that we will make mistakes sometimes. And that’s okay. I’d like to know think that what God is “scoring” us on is not perfection but our continuous intenion. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!

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