What do you do when so many things you once believed are questioned and put in doubt? Do you continue to hold on because people from your past insist that is the way to do things? Or do you embrace this new space given to you and just run with it, while keeping in the back of your mind that you may be in the wrong?
I’m merging two separate issues right now and so the above stream-of-conscious self-questioning probably won’t make sense to anyone but myself, but I’ve come across a few notions in the past few days that have gotten my head spinning in many different directions.
But whatever people may say – and I won’t be able to please them all, I have to accept MY reality. I can’t look to others to tell me what to do, even though I’ve gotten almost comfortable with living my life that way. I didn’t even realize that I was doing this until I got married actually. The change in environment was a rude awakening for me, but perhaps one that I needed. For the first time in my life, questioning was not only allowed, it was encouraged. In fact, I had to do it.
I’m not really sure where I am going with this post, but I just had to let it out. I decided against making a Facebook update (since I am now Twitter-less) because the site is too public and not really the appropriate medium for my ramblings. I like the obscurity of the blogosphere. It suits me. Especially for posts that are incoherent and impromptu like this one.
If you’re reading this and feel comfortable commenting, I have a question for you: How do you find your personal truth amidst the different competing positions when “right” and “wrong” are no longer as clear as you once thought?