For the past week or so, I’ve been feeling super overwhelmed and inundated, as my previous post should have made rather clear.
I go through these cycles in my life when all the demands seem too much for me to handle. It could be my perfectionism, my fear of failure…
With respect to failure: What does that even mean, though? And is failure really such a bad thing? I’ve actually received an F in high school as a final grade! Though it was the worst part of my adolescence for a time – because I was convinced that that F in AP Chemistry would forever doom me – by the time I applied to grad school years later, it had no impact whatsoever. Luckily, I did well in undergrad and that’s all that really mattered.
My point is: I’m not so great with dealing with stress. I don’t know many people who would claim they are. The only person that I know who deals with stress well, I think, is my mom. But sometimes I think my mom is not even human – she’s like the closest thing to angel-human I know.
But now, a week later, I have a much better perspective.
When all those demands seem too much, Rafia, what you gotta do is just take it day by day. You hear that phrase all the time, but what does that mean? It means: Do what you can each day – and eventually it will all come together. God has a way of giving you an inspiration or idea when you least expect it and then you realize, “Oh, wow, it’s gonna be okay.”
But even if it’s not your definition of “okay,” you’ll be fine. Just think back to those AP Chemistry days and see how far you’ve come along since then. I revel in failing AP Chemistry now. It’s like a badge of honour!
I’m not not nervous about next week – or next month for that mater – but I feel I’m in a better position to handle it all now. God will help me, I must believe, as God always does.
If nothing else, take copious notes. There’s just something about having things in writing.