My first-ish 5K!

I did it! I signed up for a 5K!

Somebody asked me yesterday what I like to do for fun and I answered in this order: Read, write, sing… and recently I’ve started getting into running. I love how I feel the need to add all those qualifiers in the last one.

Honestly, I have a hard time even admitting it to myself. 1) I’m not an athlete 2) I’ve never been an athlete 3) My mile time is really slow 4) I’ve never done more than a 5K 5) I’ve only ever run a 5K on the treadmill (except for that one time) 6) Running on the pavement is real running 7) Is what I do even running? It’s more like a fast walk for normal people. But because I’m so short, I feel like I’m being chased by a lion who hasn’t eaten in three stinkin’ days.

So yeah, all these excuses and probably more if I really take the time to sit on it.

But much like last year, when I finally came to terms with being a writer, I think I’m finally coming to terms with being a runner, albeit a beginner runner.

I do believe in positive self-fulfilling prophecies. I guess those are called self-affirmations, but that language is too new-age-y for me. I am a writer because I write. Ergo, I am a runner because I run.

What I like about “running” (it’s going to take some time) is that I’m only really competing with myself. Sure, I do glance over at the next person’s MPH and feel like a loser, but you know what? I don’t know that person. Maybe they’ve been doing this all their life. They most likely do not have short legs like I do (it makes a difference, okay? Short people have to exert themselves more to keep up with tall people. Short people don’t get enough credit). Regardless, it’s a nice feeling to be able to keep a consistent not-walking-pace for 25 minutes. Old Rafia could have never done that.

In many ways, running is the most empowering, confidence-inspiring thing I can do for myself. I find myself confronting some of my truths that were once non-negotiable. Why can’t I run? Because I was a fat kid? That’s idiotic. I can’t find the link now, but Runner’s World had a feature on 6 beginner runners and there was one that particularly resonated with me: a severely overweight med student who now runs marathons. If a 350-pound man can run a marathon, I can do a 5K, maybe even a 10K one day. We’ll leave it at that for now.

I guess as I get older, I wanna be active. I don’t want to be someone who is a victim of circumstances largely of her own making. Been there, done that. Losing weight in my twenties, as hard as it was, was relatively easy: I was young, had no responsibilities, etc. I’m not even all that concerned about weight anymore. I mean, I am. But that’s not really why I want to run. There’s this feeling of accomplishment I get when I do something that scares me (but is not actually scary – I ain’t jumping out of a plane anytime soon). And I don’t know, I like how bad-a** I feel running to the Mortal Kombat soundtrack. I dare you to not feel like Liu Kang when you hear those beats!

Now that the weather is getting a bit warmer, a friend of mine and I have made plans tomorrow to run together – outside! Yikes. There’s no excuse though. Mr. Rafia got me actual running shoes for my birthday, I have a jersey hijab that I’ve been using for my gym workouts, I finally wear pants… it’s time. Also, I don’t want to go into the 5K not having done any pavement “running” since that first 5K years ago. It’s in 3 weeks!

I’m scared, but also excited. As long as I make sure to hydrate and stretch and to be easy on myself (I learned the hard way that it’s not a good thing to push past your pain when running because then you’ll be out for the next two weeks). I feel like this is the beginning of something new. I would eventually like to do a 10K one day. It may take years and that’s fine. But as long as I am consistent, God-willing, it can happen.

It’s kinda nice to surprise myself and try new things. Wow. Is this what marriage has done to me? I know Mr. Rafia would love to take all the credit. But one thing that I do remember from my four years of studying Econ is this: correlation does not imply causation. Thank you, Dr. Lobo!

12 thoughts on “My first-ish 5K!

  1. I love this quote, “I am a writer because I write. Ergo, I am a runner because I run.”! I am so proud of you! Make sure you get a photo of yourself crossing the finish line. Your willingness to go for it is very inspiring! Thanks for sharing.

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  2. Hahaha good luck baji! I like the checklist: jersey hijab, running shoes, pants :D – Its like I need all these things to be in place before I can actually START the process too lmao. Are you currently in training mode?

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  3. It’s advice that I had a hard time accepting, but it’s true. We have to stop comparing ourselves to others and set our own standards. Thank you! I’ll see if I can get a photo. I’m not really a selfie-person, although taking a selfie while crossing the finish line would probably be dangerous as well. Haha! See you this Saturday? :)


  4. For real. For a couple of years, I had stopped wearing pants (long skirts and dresses only), so I had stopped working out. The first time I wore sweatpants to the gym (my friend really pushed me) I really thought I was doing something besharam. Alhamdullilah, I’ve mostly gotten over that way of thinking, but you don’t know how important being prepared is. After you spend that money, you gotta make use of it! I mean, that’s the Desi in me. I don’t understand hoarding. I think I am in training mode… but I don’t know if one can really train for a 5K. I need to, so I am doing what I can. Are you thinking of getting into running, too?


  5. Thank you! Haha. Now I’m feeling pressure to look like a professional runner. I’ll probably be wearing the one real athletic shirt I have and sweats. Are you going to be able to make it to the writer’s workshop this Saturday?


  6. Thank you! I actually did a post-race post, but it went really well for my firstish 5k! I did better than I thought and I actually began running. I’ve begun to tell people! Btw. So glad you commented and that I found your blog!!!


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