Wow, only 1 week left of fasting… well at least during the month of Ramadan.
I’ve been doing my best to reap the benefits of the last ten days. But for one reason or another, I have not been able to do what I had planned. Not feeling well, I pray, is the reason why.
While I feel some relief finally today, it’s never fun to be unwell, especially during Ramadan. I know lots of people can’t fast at all for medical reasons, but that does not mean that they can’t still partake in other acts of ibadah.
That’s what I had to tell myself.
It’s never easy taking your own advice though.
These past three days have been a lesson in patience. I’m not sure I aced it. But I have to remember, whether in a state of joy or pain, always come back to God.
Allah is al-Hamd (the Praiseworthy), but he is also al-Shafi (the Healer).
I’m starting to think that perhaps Allah puts us in different states, so that we can call Him by His various divine attributes. Most people don’t say “Ya Shafi” when something good happens; we say “Alhamdulillah.” But I think we need to be reacquainted with all of God’s attributes, to keep us in a state of awe. For most people, it waxes and wanes. We are so grateful when we ace the test we studied really hard for, but are we grateful when we didn’t get the job that seemed just perfect?
I’m sure there are some Muslims that can fully ponder the many attributes, regardless of the situation they are in. I am not one those Muslims, but I hope I can get better at it.
Still, maybe it’s okay that I must experience a thing before I can beseech God according to that particular attribute. I could be wrong, but if it brings me back to Allah (swt) then it’s a good thing, Insha’Allah.