Insomnia, are you here to stay?

I think I need to change the title of this blog to "Cake & Cows... & Insomnia." It doesn't quite have that same ring to it. But alas! The thing is: I can't say "No" to cake, especially when it was made by a trained baker, who also happens to be a friend, and is… Continue reading Insomnia, are you here to stay?

Saying “No” (i.e. Hello, Insomnia!)

I have been blessed (why blessed? It seems counter-intuitive on its face, but it's the word that first came to me) this week to have to say "No" to two what-could-have-been really great opportunities. Why did I say "No"? Either the dates, location, or timing simply did not work out. If they did, I'd have… Continue reading Saying “No” (i.e. Hello, Insomnia!)

On intuition and quasi-goals

I've written about the "gift" of insomnia before. I feel somewhat facetious in writing this, because honestly, being awake from 2:30 to 5:30 am this morning certainly did not feel like a gift. And yet, waking up this morning and writing in my journal as openheartedly as I did this morning was something that I… Continue reading On intuition and quasi-goals

Breaking the Habit

Today is Day 5 of no caffeine. I feel a sense of loss particularly today. Saturday is the day that I look forward to drinking my chai. No anxiety about work on my mind. I have Monday to start worrying about that. No rushing. Not a single sound. It's like I have the whole house… Continue reading Breaking the Habit

What is this feeling, so sudden and new?

I KNOW that is not the first time I started a blog post with that title. For years, I wanted to see Wicked and when I finally had a chance, I was like, "Meh." That is so classic Rafia. What is NOT classic Rafia? Drinking green tea. Willingly. I'm a chai girl. Have been since… Continue reading What is this feeling, so sudden and new?