I've written about the "gift" of insomnia before. I feel somewhat facetious in writing this, because honestly, being awake from 2:30 to 5:30 am this morning certainly did not feel like a gift. And yet, waking up this morning and writing in my journal as openheartedly as I did this morning was something that I … Continue reading On intuition and quasi-goals
Today is Day 5 of no caffeine. I feel a sense of loss particularly today. Saturday is the day that I look forward to drinking my chai. No anxiety about work on my mind. I have Monday to start worrying about that. No rushing. Not a single sound. It's like I have the whole house … Continue reading Breaking the Habit
I KNOW that is not the first time I started a blog post with that title. For years, I wanted to see Wicked and when I finally had a chance, I was like, "Meh." That is so classic Rafia. What is NOT classic Rafia? Drinking green tea. Willingly. I'm a chai girl. Have been since … Continue reading What is this feeling, so sudden and new?
One of the things I have learned in organizing public programs is that you have to be willing to let go of your reasons for starting the project. When I discovered there was some push back against one of my core reasons for starting this particular project, I was reminded of the lesson I learned … Continue reading Anxiety and insomnia never were a good mix.
After a co-worker mentioned yesterday that the weather this weekend would be great for a run, I told myself: "I gotta do it. Now or never." Inertia is strong within me. Unless I need to use the restroom or my stomach yells to me that it needs food, I can sit in one spot and … Continue reading Getting back into it